Tuesday, August 18, 2009

More Randomness.

"Randomness" - is that even a word? Probably in the same dictionary as "Stampage".

  1. My day absolutely has to start with a cup of coffee. No excuses. If it does not? Watch out.
  2. I love Hot Tamales. They are my addiction. Maybe like a smoker needs a cig? I need HT.
  3. I am a clean freak. When I am mad, I clean even more.
  4. Was told I have a "Type A personality". Don't really understand what that entails anymore other than I am a ... perfectionist. I want everything perfect. EVERYTHING.
  5. I make up words. Have been writing them down, going to write a book titled "Neneisms."
  6. Will I always want things I can not have? Or will I continue to work towards getting those things I "can not have"??
  7. I have a crush on Patrick Dempsey. He's so um, dreamy.
  8. My favorite number is 19.
  9. I prefer men to women friends. They are less drama and more straight forward. Unfortunately Paul doesn't like that so much.
  10. I hope to own a horse, some day. I love horses. Always have.
to be cont'd....(at a later date).

Monday, August 17, 2009

Listening...

Wait for Me
By: Theory of a Deadman


You are not alone tonight
Imagine me there by your side
It's so hard to be here so far away from you
I'm counting the days till
I'm finally done
I'm counting them down, yeah, one by one
It feels like forever till I return to you
But it helps me on those lonely nights
It's that one thing that keeps me alive

Knowing that you wait for me
Ever so patiently

No one else knows the feeling inside
We hang up the phone without saying goodnight
Because it's the sound of your voice that brings me home
It's never been easy to say
But it's easier when I've gone away

Knowing that you wait for me
Ever so patiently
Yeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having and
It's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me

What I'd give
What I'd do
Knowing I'm not there for you
Makes it so hard to leave
What I'd give
What I'd do
Anything to get me home to you
And this time I'll stay

And you wait for me
Ever so patiently
Yeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having and
It's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me





Sunday, August 16, 2009

What day is it?

....the reason I ask is because Paul is at work. Again. He worked yesterday too. Missed Joey's 10th birthday party. Thank goodness I have such great friends, that helped me out. Without them, I would have been a mess. (Thank you to Stacie, Lisa, Sara & Al!!). I'm having a hard time today. I shouldn't be. I keep trying to tell myself, it's not that bad. My best friend April has to overcome a whole year without her husband. I need to shut up and stop complaining about Paul working so much.... learn to be thankful he isn't serving a 12 month tour in Kuwait.

This week was a busy wacky cooky one. Joey's birthday, the cats getting sick (which I'll visit in a moment), the Toby Keith/Trace Adkins concert and Joey's birthday party, which turned out to be a success afterall.

The cats are going to be ok. Turns out Dot has allergies and what happened to her nose was a severe reaction to a mosquito bite. Interesting....apparently the bump she's had her whole life is just a "deformity" and she'll always have it....So, I now have to give her an allergy pill (otc) and put fish oil on her food. Lily has a bladder problem. Had a very severe bladder infection and now has to be on a special diet for cats with bladder problems. Sigh...enough about that.

Trace Adkins and Toby Keith were awesome. As usual. I love both of them, not to mention they are HOT to look at :) They sing great songs and def put a great show for the crowd. Joey seemed to have fun. He was very tired, but still managed to stay awake until the end!

I feel as though I'm a single mom again. Paul is working so much and is hardly home. When he is home he's so tired. Yesterday hit me hard not having his help for the party. Sigh, not going to go on, might say something I dont want put out in public. Sigh.

Today Joey and I are just hanging out, relaxing. He has worked on homework, watched some cartoons, and now he is building legos. We wanted to go to the movies, but of course, Paul wants us to wait so he can go with us, so maybe next weekend. I'm grouchy. I'm going to stop writing because nothing is coming out right and just, yah.

Olive Juice.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

I love my cats. I really do.

I've been needing to find a vet here in Arizona for the girls. They are about due for their annual checkup. It always sucks to have to find a new vet, it goes along with a new dentist, a new dr, a new everything....
So among my list of things to do today was to find the girls a new vet, mostly so Dot could get her nose checked out.

When she was just an itty bitty kitten, she had this black dot on her nose. She was born with it, hence her name, "Dot". Not to be confused with "Spot". (which is what some people call her). When I first took her to the vet they said "ahh, it's nothing, it should go away" and it did.....

There has always been a sort of "lump" on the bridge of her nose but just in the past few weeks the spot started to lose hair and grow larger. And purple. Like it was full of blood or something. She's usually pretty good and lets me do stuff to her face (ie: get her eye boogies, pick her nose and look at her teeth). It never seemed to hurt her or bother her so it wasn't really a big deal to us I guess. We knew that we should take her in but, since it wasn't bothersome it wasn't a priority...

I was up and moving around today, it wasn't the best of mornings. I woke up with a headache that my coffee did not heal and the worst most horrible cramps imaginable. Just before I was getting ready to attempt my morning workout I decided to lay on the bed for a minute to stretch out my back and hope that it'd help my aching tummy. That's when I heard Lily making scratching noises towards the foot of the bed....I looked and sure enough she was using her paw to scratch (so totally not normal for her out of her litter box) and as I looked further, I saw it. She peed. On our bed. A lot. (let me reiterate...A LOT). I sat up quickly not even wanting to scold her, but more or less worried about my $200 down comforter and even more so my couple thousand dollar TempurPedic mattress! When she saw me sitting up she jumped off the bed and kind of froze. I pulled my sheets and blanket and mattress pad off of my bed and started them in the laundry....the comforter, sadly, can not be saved :( It is not salvageable and it sucks. Thats not something I wanted to spend money on right now.

Laundry started, next task? Get the girls in to the laundry room so they are confined while I find a vet. The first thing that came to my mind was "PetSmart". They have a vet clinic inside that would be quick and easy and hopefully pretty reasonable price wise. Bingo....she said I could bring them in right away.

As a side note, I knew something was off. Last night Lily was extra snugly and stayed either on my stomach or right at my side all night long. Almost as if she felt something was wrong. I honestly thought she knew I wasn't feeling well so she was loving up to me. I think it was her that wasn't feeling well....

I get them to the vet, checked in, weighed, looked at by the nurse and she says the Dr will be in shortly. As I'm waiting in the room, I look down and notice that Dot has blood all over her paw and on her face! Her little lump burst open a bit. Ok, so my day is not going at all as planned... 1st Lily was the priority and now I'm thinking it may be Dot..... The doctor comes in, I explain what's wrong with each of them and she gives her prognosis...Dot needs to see a specialist. Since it's a "growth" it would need to be biopsied and the place that it's in is not exactly the best place to be removing something. It's right on the bridge of her nose and it's just horrid :( So....she is going to a dermatologist/oncology office tomorrow morning. (While I am typing this I am thinking "what the hell? I have been needing to go to a dermatologist for how long and I don't go because I don't want to spend the money yet I'm going to take my cat without thinking about it? Gonna revisit that one later). Bought Dot an E-collar and brought her home. She's moping around the house, meowing, looking for her sister....who, we had to leave at the vet. Dr noticed she was tender in a few spots in her abdomen and she also felt a lump in her bladder area. She suggested an X-ray and urine sample. Could be as simple as a UTI or she could have what they call a bladder stone (which I still haven't researched online). Still waiting for them to call with the results as I type.

I'm a mess.
  1. I love my cats. So do Paul and Joey and none of us want something to be wrong with them. They have been a part of our family for 2 1/2 years now and like I just said, they are a "part of our family".
  2. $$$$$$$$$$ CHA CHING! So expensive. I had to have the gal retype the estimate and not have certain tests run like three different times until I got the price to one that Paul and I saw fit to pay just to find out what's wrong. (that's the sucky part, we dont even know what it will cost to fix her...)
  3. Joey was not too happy when he came home from school 20 minutes ago to find that Dot was wearing a cone and Lily was no where to be found....nothing worse than seeing your childs heart breaking. (luckily he has since been distracted by more birthday presents that came in the mail)
I'm out of words. I'll probably read this later and it won't make sense. I have to think about what to do. What is right without breaking our wallets. What do people do in these situations? Seriously? We can't spend all of our savings on them.....we just can't, but we also can't just give them away sick.....

Can I have a tissue please?





Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Birthdays


Today is Joey's birthday. I have a lot to say, just not a lot of time right now....I need to collect my thoughts and how I want to lay it all out. Viewing some photos helps and keeps
the memories alive. I love my son with all of my heart and enjoy watching him grow through the years. I can't believe that 10 years ago today, I gave birth to him. No drugs. (go me!) He's growing to be quite the young man.
This was his first look at snow in December 2001 when we were living in Poquoson, Va. I think he liked it...and has since!

His 1st kiss with Faith. She was his buddy....This photo will always be treasured!


Springtime, 2002. One of my favorite photos of the two of us. Such a little ham (like his mom)



Happy Birthday to my beautiful child. I love you,
Love,
Mom