Living life

Goals in life never get accomplished by talking about them, thinking about them or even dreaming about them. Get out there and do what you love, be who you are and live with no regrets. What's the worst that could happen? You can't live life in fear of rejection, being let down or not winning. Simply applying yourself to something has already made you a winner.

Get out there and life life! Choose to be positive and make healthy choices! I have learned so much by living under these rules. It's definitely paying off in life and love.

Be patient with your loved ones, stand your ground with your friends and don't use words that hurt. I read this quote today and I'm not sure who wrote it or where it came from, but it is so true : "A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future and accepts you just the way you are." My friends are my support and I turn to them when I need to. I'm so thankful to have them in my life. I choose who I want in my life and so far I've made good choices!

I'm so excited for new things on the horizon, I can't wait to share them!

Comparing colleges

I have finally narrowed it down to a field I'd like to study. This week I am meeting with someone from each of the two colleges that I am looking at and hopefully good will come from it. One definitely is already looking better from my point of view because of the degree being transferable. I am also hoping that after I learn a little more about the program it sparks my interest even more.

I don't have many questions, although I know I should have more. My biggest concerns are:

-Cost??

-Is the Associates Degree going to be transferable to a university so that I can go for my BS?

Pretty much all of my other questions have been answered by the voice on the other end of the telephone or by reading the handy dandy website.

I hoping that as the week progresses I get more excited and I actually can act upon it. I'm not sharing the field until I know it's really what I want. Until then, you'll have to live in suspense!

Choosing to be positive

The months leading up to turning the grand age of 30 were difficult for me. I was feeling old and didn't know where I wanted to go with my life. I was over analyzing everything and constantly trying to discover what I wanted to be when I "grew up". Actually turning 30 was a whole life changing event for me. I chose to be positive and live a healthy lifestyle.

Since February I have learned more about myself while NOT looking then I did during the years of trying to find myself. I have stepped back and let life blossom around me and it feels so amazing. I'm eating differently and trying new things I swore I'd never eat, (still not going to eat fungus though) and working on my cooking abilities. Thank goodness Paul and Joey don't mind a grilled cheese or Turkey BLT when my meal doesn't turn out quite like it should have. I have found that being a mom and wife is definitely my dream job. While I may not be able to be a stay at home mom forever, for the time being it's definitely my calling. I am so happy!

I wake up every day choosing to live positively. I wake up with a smile, work out, have breakfast with Joey all while enjoying life and it's blessings of health and happiness. So many people around me talk about changing their eating habits and exercising more but I've really come to find that talking about it never gets you anywhere. I wish so bad that they could see the happiness I am experiencing and know that if they lost the weight they have been trying to lose for 15 years, they too would be happy.

Joey brought home his 4th quarter progress report last night and I am so proud of him. He has really started to shine towards the end of 5th grade and I think it's only going to get better. I love seeing his face light up as he watches the excitement in my eyes while reading his grades. I am so proud of him and I know that he is progressing so much because of the love that Paul and I give him. It is truly a great feeling.

I'm tossing around some new ideas this week for different pages of my blog. Possibly a food log of new recipes I try or maybe even a detailed menu and workout for others to follow to see the same results I am seeing. Not sure how it will all work out, but it's just a thought I had while vacuuming this morning.

I am so thrilled for the next couple months and the events they hold! So many great things are happening and I know it's because I am making them happen. I am choosing to be positive!

Late night writing. (4-27-10)

Did I do this?

Did I make you this way?

You don't care like you used to and it's killing me inside.

The glare from your eyes wraps around my heart and turns me so cold.

I want to be warm again.

I want you to love again and be free.

How do I get you to be the man you used to be?

The one that cared about me and my feelings?

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Sometimes I lay awake at night and write. It doesn't always have something to do with what is going on in my life and is mostly just the inside of my head. Feelings of past, present or even feeling what I think friends may be feeling.

Field Trip

Yesterday I had the enjoyment of going on a field trip with Joe's 5th grade class. It was pretty exciting to me as I hardly ever get to go on field trips. I was always working before we moved here and never able to go. It's such a blessing to be a part of Joe's class and have the children recognize me as his mom. I love hanging out with the kids and observing them. Watching their conversations and trying to figure out the differences in personalities. I am really enjoying this age and am starting to think it's becoming my favorite.

We went to the Halle Heart Children's Museum in Tempe. It is funded by the American Heart Association and yes, you guessed it, all about the heart.  I'm not sure if it's open to the public or not, but it was definitely geared towards school age children and organized for a field trip. At every 15 minute interval we would go to a new station and do a new hands on activity or learn a different aspect about eating healthy.

I thought it was great, especially because I have made these lifestyle changes in our home and I am always telling Joe why we exercise and eat healthy. This only helped my case. Now he doesn't think I'm just his "crazy mom". He understands more of why I am always making him eat spinach and strawberries and don't let him drink soda or eat a lot of junk food.

When we got back to the school we walked to the park near by to have lunch. I've definitely realized now that my son has officially grown out of the wanting mom around phase. We sat on the lawn with his friends and when they wanted to get up and go eat on the playground, he went right with him and left me there. Sitting alone!! It was great when I overheard his friend saying "Dude! Joe, your mom is here to have lunch with you and you totally just left her there!". I sat and enjoyed my lunch, listening to the conversations of a group of girls sitting to my left and watching some other kids play tag to my right. It was peaceful, reassuring and  one of the best lunches I've had this year.

I am feeling great. I really do feel that my job as a mom is the best, most rewarding job there could be. I am really enjoying it and taking advantage of every day spent being a stay at home mom, because I really don't know how much longer I'll have. I have also just started week 9 of my new eating habits and exercise regimen. I have lost a total of 10.5 lbs and am down at least 1 size in my clothes. I haven't tried on my wedding dress yet, but I'm almost certain it might fit by week 12. I wish that I could share my inspiration and energy with so many who just can't get there. If only they knew how wonderful I feel....