It's May 7 and already the triple digit weather. Never did I think it was going to come this early....but it's ok. I like it. I love the heat and I love the sunny weather. I would never want to live anywhere that it is overcast and rainy and cold....blech. Never.... My life is pretty boring, most of the time. I spend my days cleaning and playing Cinderella in this home I call my palace. That's ok, I like it. Today I got up at 5:15am and made my husband his lunch for work. Wasn't too hard, just had to pack some left over spaghetti and a yogurt with some fruit and a little treat I like to call Oreos. He's spoiled, yes. I then made him breakfast and turned on the news to see what was going on in Santa Barbara, CA. The wildfires are so devastating. We have a cousin who lives there and she had to evacuate last night. My heart goes out to her and all of the other thousands of families who have to do the same. Anyways, got a little off track. Once I caught up on that, I folded some laundry, made my son some breakfast and hung out with him before he was off to his bus stop. Once he left I started my cleaning ritual. Change the kitty litter, water my plants outside, sweep the entire house (2400 sq ft) and then mop it....sounds fun huh?  I enjoy it actually....I'm just HOT right now because it's freaking 83 degrees in my house. I'm refusing to turn on the AC and really, it's not THAT bad. It's hotter outside.... My life in a nutshell. I've been through a lot and what I've been through, both easy and tough times, has made me who I am. I complain a bit but when I stop and think about who I am and what I've accomplished I realize how lucky I am to have the life I've lived and do live. There's just so much I want that I can't have. This journey I'm on right now is one to try and get rid of the "wants" and focus on what I have.... Pool is calling...must swim.... Until next time...

Summertime is almost here!

hard to believe that it's almost summer. really weird to say "almost" as it's 98 degrees outside. I definitely love the feel of the hot summer sun and am eagerly anticipating experiencing a real Arizona summer in the "valley of the sun". 

today is earth day. hm. what does that mean really? why do we only dedicate 1 day out of 365 to help save the planet. i think it's BS. it should be practiced every day of the year. just watched a very disturbing video on the Oprah Winfrey show. the turtle who grew up with a plastic ring around his shell was the worst. 

thinking about school. always thinking about what i want to do when i grow up. I'm going to be 30 next year and to me that's a milestone. i love staying home and being a stay at home mom and would love to have more children but is that going to happen? can we afford to do that? if i have to go back to work then I'm definitely not having more children :( 

time to swim....

Need to vent.

Just having difficulty getting my thoughts out....

soon. words will come as swiftly as they leave my lips.

New Beginnings.

Here I am. Once again. Wow, has it been that long since I've written? I am here, in the Valley of the Sun. A place I can now call home. Surrounded by desert mountains and blue skies. The Saguaro cactus stands tall in the distance. I like it. The sun feels good on my skin and the breeze feels wonderful through my hair.

I am jobless. I quit my job to move with my husband. He got a job offer here that we couldnt refuse and now here we are. I have my first interview coming up in exactly 2 weeks. I am nervous. Knowing now how it really is behind the closed doors of dispatch....

just a taste of my many ramblings to come....I need this...I need to vent and I need something that is MINE....

My Head Hurts

It aches. I want to go home. Only 1 more hour to go and I will be released and on my way to my nice cozy bed. Tonight at work has been terribly slow. I am looking forward to switching to swing shift and getting off at 2am....I'm done with the 2am-6am slump. I want to be at home with my hubby, cuddled up to him so nice and warm!

I think I'm getting sick. I think Joey is getting sick. He told me he had a headache when I put him to bed tonight and when I picked him up from school he said he had a sore throat.....I now have had a horrible headache since 4pm yesterday.....can't shake it. Usually if it's just a "headache" it goes away, not this one. My neck aches, my back aches and my brain aches....

I've decided not to apply with the agency I was looking at. I was watching an episode of "Cops" yesterday and sitting on the couch with my little one....I decided I am where I need to be, in the safety of a building with no bloody subjects to touch, no puke in the back of my veh, not running around searching for a subj with a gun and more importantly when it's raining, I am INSIDE!!! I'll touch more on that one later....

For now....I'm done. It's almost 5am and my shift is almost over. I dont even have the engery to write. ...