Not. Sure.

I'm not too sure what I want to do. Do I want to continue to stay home? Go to work? I want to have a career that means something to me. I dont want to go to work just to "go to work". However I dont have the time or money to go to school...such a delima. Not sure what to do. I do know that I will not go back into law enforcement. Not as a dispatcher anyways. Not even a police officer. I just dont know.....

Paul is at work, again. Today. He worked all day yesterday and now he's back at work again today. I hate it. I shouldn't complain, really I shouldn't. By him going to work allows me to stay home, and he did take a few days off last week so we could go camping. But....he deserves those days off. That is why he is given vacation time.

So...I'm browsing jobs on the internet while I give Joey a little bit of video game time before we head outside to swim. It's supposed to be hot again today. Another excessive heat warning in effect. Hopefully the pool is refreshing.

Yesterday was great fun. Paul's cousin Stacie came over in the afternoon and hung out with Joey and I. She brought this underwater digital camera she has and I am in love with it! I have to get one. Maybe we'll go to Costco this afternoon and take a look at it....hmmm.

My coffee is almost gone which means my internet time is up. I need to get up and get moving, but I dont want to. I have absolutely no motivation to do anything today. Maybe because it's Sunday and it's supposed to be a day of rest and relaxation...I feel like something is missing in my life and I just can't quite fi

gure out what it is.....

Making up for yesterday....

I've been playing with my camera and I now LOVE it! I set some ordinary bananas on my kitchen table, the windows were open and with the right settings on my camera, this is what I got....

Maybe to some it's boring....but to me, I think it looks great! It's a pretty sweet looking photo!!!

And here....my little friend at the Ostrich farm....

Such a pretty little bird....just so darn messy!!!

My son is my best guinee pig!!! I love taking pictures of him because he is so animated and so patient with me. I can take picture after picture and he will still just sit there posing, or doing whatever until I tell him I'm done!

Wow. I suck.

So, wow...first things first. I suck. I already missed a day. I thought about writing all day....I was so busy and wished I could just think it and it would type on my blog. Yah, that didnt happen.

Yesterday was hot. Like 110 degrees hot. IMO anything after 100 feels the same. Especially when you are doing yard work in it for 4 hours. Joey helped me, so that was nice. We'd jump in the pool, do some work, and then jump in again. Got everything I want to get done, done. I felt very accomplished and didnt feel guilty while lounging in the pool all afternoon.

Had an interesting experience last night. Hope to never have it again. Movies on Friday night = BAD! From the moment we got there and had the annoying teenie boppers sitting in front of us, I knew it was going to be a LONG movie. I love Harry Potter. I do. This one just didnt do it for me. I dont know if it was the movie? The fact that I didnt read this book? The smell of the people in the movie theater (do people not shower??) Was it the kid texting through the ENTIRE movie sitting next to Joey? Seriously, I'm all about my phone and texting, but if you are going to pay $9.75 to see a movie, can you not just put your phone away for 2 1/2 hours? Is it that important? YOU ARE 13!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So, yah, not an experience I enjoyed. I would have much rather been at home watching the storm rip plants from my yard, and toss palm fronds all over the pool. Much more exciting!

Today is Saturday. Paul is at work and Joey is watching cartoons. I have snuck away into my little corner and it feels nice. I'm missing something though. Something with a strong aroma. It's almost 11am and if I dont have it soon, I'm gonna be a mess. I wish I could kick the habit but it's not that I drink it because I'm addicted, I actually like to have my coffee every morning. It's soothing and I just plain ol like it! Besides, nutrionists say that a cup a day can actually be healthy.

I didn't post a picture yesterday. So, I better post 2 today. Man, I'm really bad at this goals thing...

Ok, so I'm trying to post pictures but for some reason that picture folder keeps freezing. Have to restart....I'll post some pictures later.

Daily Photo

I'm learning to use my camera....still not great, but messing around with the settings. Every day I am going to post a photo that I've taken!!

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Meet....Harold.

July 10, 2009

Summertime!

Wow, I haven't really been using this thing they call a "blog" however I think about it every day. I really need to start writing again, it used to be my passion. I feel I have lost it. What is a better time to start again than now?

Just got back from a weekend of camping. 4 days and 4 nights in the woods with good company, campfires, dirtbikes, hiking and food. It was great....until Al got sick. We were staying with Al & Sara in their toy hauler and Al came down with a cold on Saturday. He kept saying that it was allergies and he was coughing all over all of us...we knew it wasn't allergies. What do you know? Joey and Paul are both sick now...go figure.

I have 7 weekdays left with Joey before he starts the 5th grade. I can't believe it! I remember being in the 5th grade like it was yesterday. I remember feeling so grown up and it was about the time I had my first "boyfriend" which my dad called a "walk about". (I guess it was because we would walk around school holding hands). I am happy Joe's not into girls, yet. I hope it stays that way. I like that he is into dirtbikes for now....

I am making a promise to myself that I am going to start writing again. Or do I call it "blogging". I just need to learn to use this site and figure out how to post pictures throughout my blog. Maybe my trusty sidekick Stacie can help me when she comes over tonight....

~Ne