Contemplating

We've talked about moving. Getting out of here and starting somewhere new. We've thought of Arizona....Sometimes I think it's more of a dream than what it really is, reality. Can we do it? Can we afford to just pick up and leave? To go somewhere new where we have no idea what it is really like to be there? On one hand that is very exciting to me....on the other...scary....

I've always wanted to become a police officer. Ever since I was young I wanted to be a part of something but never really knew what until I was about 23 and going through a divorce. I had applied with a few agencies but was still young and scared. I gave up while in backgrounds with a potential employer. I got cold feet and pushed my dream aside. Two years ago I decided to pursue my dream again but only taking a different path. I became a dispatcher. It was the toughest hoop I've ever jumped through. The hiring process is not an easy one and I was able to get through. I passed through the 46 weeks of training in just 42 weeks and am loving every day of my job. I do, I love it! I am the type of person to always want more....

One of the agencies I dispatch for is hiring again. They had put hiring on hold for a while and I didn't really think of ever applying anywhere else. Not many agencies hire "entry level" or "police trainees". This one does. I have an itch. I have the itch to go to the Police Academy and become a police officer. I am just not sure where my husband I stand in our living situation. Are we moving? Are we staying? If we are staying I'm definately applying....but there is an application deadline. If we are leaving I will apply in the new city we are moving to. Only downfall is I won't know much about the city, where as now, I actually dispatch for this agency and I know how they work and I know what's expected from dispatch....

Basically I'm contemplating applying....I want to, a big part of me really wants to, but there is a very small part of me that thinks it isn't a good idea.....